...Хм, странно.
Давно я уже не думала о Нем. А тут вдруг вспомнила...его глаза, улыбку...
Аж дрожь пробежала по телу. И что-то сново начало неумолимо прожигать изнутри.
Интересно что бы он почувтвовал, если бы я попала в больницу...в тяжелом состоянии...
Как бы он на это отреагировал?...
Пришел бы меня навестить?... или ему просто стало бы меня жалко...
А если ему не все равно, если я для него хоть что-то значу, то почему для того чтобы он это показал со мной должно что-то случиться.
Он же умный,...все видит. Почему не говорит ничего.
Ненавижу молчание...
Я скучаю по нем. Наверное я все таки его люблю раз уж даже время не гасит этого чувства, что пылает внутри меня... пылает, а сделать ничего не могу,... еще рано все ему рассказывать.
Наверное я его никогда не забуду... а я и не хочу забывать...
Он для меня слишком много значит. Но поймет ли он это... думаю, что поймет.
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Forgotten Hopes (Anathema)
Hey you rotting in your alcoholic shell
Banging on the walls of your intoxicated mind
Do you ever wonder why you were left alone
As your heart grew colder and finally turned to stone
Did I punish you for dreaming?
Did I break your heart and leave you crying?
Don't you ever dream of escaping...
Pathetic oblivion
Forgotten hopes buried in your soul's lonely grave
Pathetic oblivion
Remember how you were before you locked your heart away
Did I punish you for dreaming?
Did I break your heart and leave you crying?
Do you ever dream of escaping...
Don't you ever dream of escaping?
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Parisienne Moonlight (Anathema)
I feel I know you
I don't know how
I don't know why
I see you feel for me
You cried with me
You would die for me
I know I need you
I want you
To be free of all the pain
You have inside
You cannot hide
I know you tried
To be who you couldn't be
You tried to see inside of me
And now i'm leaving you
I don't want to go
Away from you
Please try to understand
Take my hand
Be free of all the pain
You hold inside
You cannot hide
I know you tried
To feel...
To feel...
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(Breaking Down The) Barriers (Anathema)
Floating with nowhere to hide
Unspoken twist back inside
How did we get here?
Life don't belong here
Feel like I just never tried
To find a way back to the outside
It stops me from breathing
Kills all the dreaming...
Talking to you from the other side of a wall in my mind
And it's clear that you're near to me
I think I found a way to understand why I couldn't see what was happening
The fear overcame me
Took a trip on the inside, I took a trip on the inside
I try to hold on until this feeling is gone
Break through to the other side, I need to break through to the other side
Of everything that is hurting you...
I just can't lay down and die
It takes a lifetime to understand why
It seems that you're near me
But you don't seem to hear me...
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Leave No Trace (Anathema)
Born to the glare of the senses
Spoon fed reality infused
A new inherent
Passive contentment
You are so easily amused
Here and now
We are gone in a heartbeat
A dream in the
Passage your time
Chances are fading
This world isn't waiting
The moment is passing you by
Questions lie beneath the surface
The fools are fooled once again
Benign coincidence
We stole our existence
And gladly cast it to the wind
Here and now
We are gone in a heartbeat
A dream in the passage of time
Chances are fading
This world isn't waiting
The moment is passing you by
Slowly spinning on the wind back home...